Wednesday, February 14, 2007
argh fuck everything man.
i cant sleep now cause i havent submitted my JAE yet.
and im so fucking confused now i really dont know what i want.
i wna study in hc but i really really wna stay with the sa ppl.
and the canoeing team.
.. i dont think i'll ever get t sleep unless i come up with a decision now.
ARGH FUCK !!!!
i feel so vulgar now. okay im always like that when something's pissing me off.
like now. screw all the whatever jae/pae shit lah! cant we just NOT have any first 3mths shit and just chose schs once and for all.
all these first 3mth shit is making me damn fucking confused.
(and im trying t refrain frm using vulgarities at ppl im talking t nw)
i feel like a loser.
why did the fucking hell did i end up with 8pts?!
7 i wld have chosen hc and 9 i wld have just stayed in sa.
8 is like no where and in between. i dont even know whether i can get into hc anot.
omg why am i thinking so much.
everyone can make their decisions so quickly.
but im still like nt here nt there.
i really dont know what i want.
every single time i convince myself t just give it a shot and try for hc.
i wld just suddenly think of sa and all the ppl there.
then i wont feel like choosing hc anymore.
yup and it happens the other way round too.
YEAHYEAH I HAVE NO LIFE.
my life revolves arnd hc and sa. damnit.!!
i think my life shortened by 10yrs because of all the stress i get frm thinking. T_T
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sigh! okay anyway i went new yr shopping tdy
and i spent alot of money.
then went t get the stuffs for making vday gifts.
yeah so technically i went arnd the whole spore.
hurhur.
yup anyway at the mrt stn right.
there was this uh. person.
who jumped in frnt of us and stopped us.
and she was frm a modelling agency O_o.
YEAH and the first thing she said t me was.
"hi im frm a modelling agency.basically we're looking for goodlooking ppl and i think you're one."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA yeah righttt.
i was like omg shut up?!?!
haha, i managed t get a top and a skirt tdy.
plus alot of other rubbish.
i spent so much tdy. aha retail therapy. T_T
argh i shld just go and anyhow whack the jae now yeah.
HAHA i bet i will just chicken out last min and go t sleep.
fuck lah.
-qianWEN
& with each passing day, i fall deeper into you;
[1:16 AM]
qianWEN♥